I Have No Idea What I'm Doing

How many of you reading this are my age and have finished a book? . . . let me rephrase. How many of you reading this are my age and have finished writing a book? Well, I salute you superperson because its just sunk in entirely that that is something I haven't actually done as stupid as that may sound.

Is it even possible to finish a full out book in three months? On my negative days I some times wonder if its even possible to finish a book at all. But seriously, I don't know how to write a book. Well, I do, but I don't. Sure, I've finished reading books and seen plenty of movies and such, but how does a new writer go about writing their first book? How do you build up to things? How do you know when to put certain things in? So many questions, so little time.

I don't want this to turn out like another one of my ranting posts about my incompetency, that'd be boring. But hey, welcome to my head!

But running off the tangent and jumping back into the point - I am a very new writer and have problems with expecting too much of myself. Some times I judge myself at a professional level which I know isn't fair to myself considering I'm still pretty young, but it just sorta happens some times. The fact that I'm not the best plotter doesn't exactly help either, but that's all right.

Anyway, I write my book and it flows, then I remember this is a book and not just a scene in my "Random Scenes Book". That makes it a little harder. So how do I go about fixing this? My ideas thus far:

• Find a time when I can really shut everything out and focus completely on the story at hand.
• Forget about making it good now and just write, fix it in the rewrite.

And . . . that's pretty much it. Yeah, not a very exciting list, but hey, I'm not very experienced yet. Maybe in six years it'll be cool and stuff, but for now, I'm leaning to the second one. However, I still don't know if I can finish it by the end of the summer. We shall see . . . .